Carnegie Mellon!!!

Wow so I’ve only been here for a little while and I’m already loving everything about this place. My room is pretty awesome, although it’s sparsely furnished and my roommate still isn’t here. There are a lot of people here who are pretty awesome. A bunch of us went out to dinner at this cute little noodle place and then we chilled at the door for a bit and then we explored the town for a while. It’s pretty fantastic, and even though I didn’t get to “celebrate” my 21st b-day I still had a great time. The city is beautiful. We found a big fountain and a cute little park. Even though we are kind of in the middle of everything, I didn’t really feel like I was in any danger walking around. We still don’t really know where everything is yet, and we all have to learn our way around and figure out where we’re going exactly etcetera etcetera, but It’s been pretty awesome so far.

I’m still trying not to have too many expectations for the next 10 weeks or so. There are going to be a lot of people here, and I may not even end up hanging out with the people that I’ve met today. I certainly hope that I will, but who knows. I suppose that’s ultimately up to me. I may very well meet a whole group of new people, but these guys are in my program so we’ll probably stay pretty tight. It’s really nice having a group of people that I feel like I can be a total nerd with…and get made fun of for it. That’s normal though. My RA’s are pretty fantastic and I really just can’t wait for more people to get here tomorrow.

We’re probably gonna go on a tour of the campus tomorrow, well our campus and Pitt’s campus. I’ll get pictures of everything up at some point tomorrow or tuesday…at least by next weekend. There are a lot of things i still don’t know about this summer. A lot of questions that I still have. They’ll all be answered with time…right now I’m just gonna sit back…and enjoy the show.

-JLS

packing…

Well I lied, I didn’t have to take a day off of the blog, however I really can’t think of very much to say. I’ve been running around all day packing and now I just wanna chill. I’ve got a 5.5 hour car ride ahead of me so I’ll have plenty of time to relax…surrounded by two large suitcases…I’m excited to leave I’m just exhausted right now. All I can think about is how much I loathe the packing process, and how I would’ve liked to have seen more people before I left. I need to get to bed kind of soon though, very early morning tomorrow. Tomorrow’s post will either be highly optimistic and full of promise, or similar to this one…tired and wishing for sleep. I promise to provide a full description of my new living situation either way.

Carnegie Mellon or Bust!!!

 

-JLS

Watchin Letterman…pondering my fate.

Late again! oops…

Tomorrow’s gonna be a strange kind of day. It’s my last day home, last day to pack, etc. etc. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t incredibly excited to leave for CMU, but I always have mixed feelings about leaving home like this. I don’t really get homesick or anything, that’s never really been a problem for me. It’s just strange leaving after being home for almost a whole month, especially during the summer. I did the same thing last year sure, but I barely even had time to think about it. I came home for about two days packed and left. All of this talk of packing and leaving must get very tedious for anyone reading my posts and I’m sorry for that. There’s simply very little else on my mind right now. I may have to skip posting tomorrow. I’ll have to get to bed early, or at least attempt to…so goodnight blog, meet me in Pittsburgh.

 

-JLS

Packing, musing…

Strange to think that May is almost over. Only a few more days of blogging! I can’t say that it’s gone by exceedingly quickly. My time spent at home always seems to creep by quite slowly. I only hope that my time at CMU doesn’t fly by too fast. I’m nervous about a lot of things, the people I’ll meet, figuring out my way around a new city again, doing good research…but I’m sure everything will go just fine. Moving is almost never a good time, but I hope it’ll go well for once. As long as it doesn’t rain, we’ll get through it.

I expect that I’ll continue blogging throughout the rest of the summer at least, it’s become quite a habit now. It’s nice to know that people actually read this thing too.

I’m sorry for being so boring today, I wish I could think of something more interesting to write, but all that’s been on my mind lately is how much I miss my friends and how strange it seems to be going away, but not returning to them. For once though I really feel I’ll be returning to everyone on the same terms I left. No wondering whether things changed over the summer, no questioning who will still be willing to put up with me and my shenanigans. Perhaps I’ll think of something interesting to talk about tomorrow.

-JLS

It’s finally over…

Today I took my GRE. For those of you who don’t know what that is it’s basically the SAT but for Grad School. It could’ve gone better, but all things considered I think I did ok. Maybe even ok enough for someone to want to accept me to their neuroscience program. I’m hoping that everything I’ve heard about the GRE being more of a formality than anything else is true…I mean my GPA is stellar, I’ll have lots of research experience by the time I graduate. I should have plenty of faculty members both at my school and outside my school who are willing to vouch for me. All that has to count for something right? It’s not like I completely failed, I don’t mean to make it sound like I totally bombed the test. I think I did quite well on the verbal section and the essays…but the math didn’t go as well as I had hoped. I haven’t had that kind of math since my junior year of high school…it just didn’t come back to me as quickly as I would’ve liked. Math was never my strong suite though. All in all I’m happy, I just might have to take the test over again after it changes. I’m still not totally sure how I feel about that.

I had my scores sent out to 4 schools right away and even though I’m not exactly proud of my math performance I hope that maybe someone emails me back asking what they’re for perhaps. It’s a bit scary beginning the process of applying to schools again. I didn’t enjoy the process 4 years ago and I highly doubt that I’ll enjoy it now…anyway.

I feel as though my mental capacity of late has been severely stretched. Maybe is just all the fretting and stressing over the GRE, but I really don’t feel like myself. The idea of doing work seems like such a chore anymore. I know it’s summer and I’m not supposed to be doing work necessarily. Maybe I’ve just discovered that the mind (more specifically MY mind) really does need a good rest for a while…too bad I’ve only got three days. Perhaps I’ve just been belittling myself unnecessarily.

I’m really excited to start doing work at Carnegie Mellon. It’s a great place for me to begin to make a name for myself as a researcher and to really start to figure out what I want to do with my life. It’s a huge step, and I’m soooo proud of myself for getting accepted into this program. I just hope that I don’t let them all down. I hope that I live up to whatever potential they saw in my application.

It’s hard to believe that I’ve been home for almost a month already and now it’s time to leave again. I hate the packing process, and the innate fear of the unknown that I can never seem to shake off. Almost one quarter of the summer is over already, I’m only 3 months away from seeing my friends again. I think the most all consuming thought that pervades my consciousness on a daily basis is just how much I miss them. We all need this time apart though, otherwise we’d all get sick of hearing the same stories over and over.

-JLS

So it’s midnight…

Just realized that I didn’t post yet today! It’s been a rather intriguing monday. New Lady Gaga album, now she’s on TV. Been doing practice GRE tests all day, and trying to get started on my summer research….I thought this was supposed to be summer break? Oh well, I should get used to it I guess, soon enough I’ll forget what summer break felt like.

I’ve really felt pretty brain dead for the past few weeks though. Whenever I try to do something I just can’t, home just isn’t a place for me to do work anymore. It makes me wonder how I ever got through High School…oh High School…but I got through it and now I’m just accustomed to doing work elsewhere. Labs, libraries, abandoned classrooms. I just hope that I find my stride again when I get out to pittsburgh. I need to kick my work ethic into high gear to get everything accomplished this summer and next year.

It’s late…I need to sleep or study, my entry tomorrow will most likely be brief…only one more day till test time 😦

-JLS